Apprehensive Exams
Whoops! I meant comprehensive. Paging Dr Freud...
I had 8 hours worth of questions. So far, I've gotten results on two of the hours. I passed them! Two down, eight to go.
I ran into that professor in the hall as she was turning in the exams she had graded. She didn't look too happy with me, and I know why: I'm not exactly thrilled with my grade. However, pass/fail is pass/fail, and I suppose that ultimately what matters is that I've grown from this experience, and I certainly have! However, I wanted to show a little better.
Yes, I know I have reason to be distracted. I realize that (every 20 minutes, when I'm in the ladies' room). However, in spite of my philosophy of growth through learning, and growth - not grade - being the goal, something deep in me wants 1) an A every time and 2) to have my teacher pleased with me. Not necessarily mutually exclusive; this combination of factors worked fairly well for me until lately.
However, I suppose that even a B- in my worst subject (and it was!) is reason to celebrate. Passing is passing is passing!
But please understand if I dig my toe in the ground and say "I guess so" when I'm congratulated on my passing. I don't feel like I deserved it. But I AM glad I passed. I think I'll feel better when I know what the other 6 hours bring.
I had 8 hours worth of questions. So far, I've gotten results on two of the hours. I passed them! Two down, eight to go.
I ran into that professor in the hall as she was turning in the exams she had graded. She didn't look too happy with me, and I know why: I'm not exactly thrilled with my grade. However, pass/fail is pass/fail, and I suppose that ultimately what matters is that I've grown from this experience, and I certainly have! However, I wanted to show a little better.
Yes, I know I have reason to be distracted. I realize that (every 20 minutes, when I'm in the ladies' room). However, in spite of my philosophy of growth through learning, and growth - not grade - being the goal, something deep in me wants 1) an A every time and 2) to have my teacher pleased with me. Not necessarily mutually exclusive; this combination of factors worked fairly well for me until lately.
However, I suppose that even a B- in my worst subject (and it was!) is reason to celebrate. Passing is passing is passing!
But please understand if I dig my toe in the ground and say "I guess so" when I'm congratulated on my passing. I don't feel like I deserved it. But I AM glad I passed. I think I'll feel better when I know what the other 6 hours bring.
posted by Michelle | 8:50 PM
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